you all wouldn't believe that I have more than thirty drafts in my queue and I left this blog sitting here, like I have nothing to say.
the truth is, I never quit telling my story, I just quit writing it - well on the blog anyway. I much prefer sharing the weight loss journey through pictures on instagram, but that really only scratches the surface of my life. although I haven't posted here in 8 months, I think about it all the time. the issue is, when I started this blog, I am not sure that I was in a space where I could share the entire story of what got me to a little over 300lbs in the first place.
here's the thing - I have never thought that my story was special, unique or one of a kind. there are many folks that grew up with my same circumstances or probably worse. my upbringing wasn't that bad. however, I genuinely believe that I was being as honest as I could be. I mean I wasn't lying, I just don't think that I was ready to share all that I am SUPPOSED to share with the world.
I don't know if I had kept going, if I would have told the whole story. I have learned a lot about myself in that short period of time, and I realize that this thing is so much bigger than losing the fat. I have literally had to let go of dead weight that I didn't even realize I was carrying; some of which I am still carrying. I have always been self-aware; but more recently, I have been confronting things that I didn't think were issues for me anymore and things that I have allowed to lie dormant and suppressed for years. by the grace of God I am healed from those scars more each day.
I pray that I can remain consistent enough to share the challenges and wins big or small, so that they can help someone.
I pray you have been well.
God bless you all.
in faith, love and optimal health